sometimes admitting it is the hardest part. writing it out and saying it was so hard. but it made it so real. ive written the whole thing off as a great experience (that i would absolutely never give up) but one that can never be re-created with the same person. he realized this long ago, and i did too. just not as long ago as he did. but talking about it - made it gel. but that's really what i needed.

dr. save me.