i haven't had a crush in ages. maybe since college. and college was filled with them. they even got names like dino and platapus and what not. but since then, i haven't really had that infatuation, or just that crush feeling. where you would kinda daydream about them but do nothing about it. crush boys were always people to admire from afar. see them at a party and chat for a minute, but not see them until walking around sproul - five days later. but now... there's no such thing. guys are either in my life or out of it. and even when i try to get some of them out - they still stay.

i think im finally at a point where the ex-boyfriend just isn't the same. the appeal of being his friend has kinda lost its lustre. i want something new.